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Since I've Been Gone

Hannah Golden, It's All New Again, skaBunnyMakes!Hannah Golden
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Greetings Adventurer!!!

It’s been a long time since we’ve talked. If you follow me on Instagram you probably know about my new puppy and my depression. You probably know that I recently read DC Titans : Raven, that I cleaned out ALL of my clothes, I started playing magic, and that tiny waffles are adorable. That’s actually a pretty good summary of what I’ve been doing since January 1 of this year. But like always I want to talk about more than the pictures and maybe get a little detailed into some of the writing I’ve been doing and let you know around when you’ll see some of it.

Just as a heads up, I embedded Kelly Clarkson’s Since You’ve Been Gone below for you. It’s been stuck in my head since I started writing, so I figured this would give everyone a chance to have a little girl power in their day.

I have a lot of things I could talk about, like the bomb cyclone and how my car was so covered in ice that I thought I’d be stranded because of how insane the storm was, or how this was the first time I’ve been entrusted with an audit of any nature. There was completing the downloadable content from Horizon Zero Dawn, the first time I was bullied for streaming on Twitch, making new friends, earning a certificate in a software development process I’ll probably never get to use. And turning 35. That little highlight reel lead to new ideas (like learning 36 things before I turn 36) and new goals. It also brought me to the place of a new job.

I’m still testing software, but I’m going to be doing this for a new company. I’m stepping up into a real grown up job, one that pays real grown up money. And I’d be lying if I didn’t say I was nervous. The last time I did anything that could remotely be considered adult, I was fired for being too childish. I wasn’t ready then and I don’t know if I’m ready now, but I start on August 25th, so we’ll see how this goes.

My transition here is gonna be choppy, but I need to talk about the movie Booksmart. The quick and dirty is this, Booksmart is the story of two girls who didn’t have any fun in high school on the eve of their graduation realizing they wanted to step up and have the real high school experience. I watched this movie with my dear friend and movie buddy Marika and I’m not gonna lie it was probably one of my favorite movies of all time. The experience was relatable, it had some of my favorite people in it and to top it off I left the movie feeling like I had just watched a masterpiece in story telling.

Olivia Wilde made something that I can’t wait to show my kids. and I don’t say that often. I can think of a dozen movies maybe that I want to share with the my future children, the rest of my favorite movies they can discover on their own when they’re ready. Booksmart though was a seriously amazing.

Where this takes us though is the current state of my life. It’s not pretty right now. I mean sure there are cool parts, I get to do things like write and start a grown up tech job, but there are parts and things that are not much better than when I started, in fact some are downright worse.

So, my depression is downright terrible. I’ve been exhaustively depressed all summer. It’s the kind of depression that makes me feel like if my brain exploded I’d be winning. It’s hard to tell truth from fiction most days and because of that my anxiety is through the roof. It’s made everything from my daily relationships to work and planning my future, even writing, harder. Let’s be real, when the only thing you want to do is sleep, going to work and meeting up with friends occasionally become huge wins. Top that off with mystery illness and I’m feeling like the little wins are medals to be won.

I finally found a doctor and a therapist that I like. I’m getting on track with getting myself back together and I’m starting to feel more like a person most days. I can’t say that I’m doing perfect, but I am doing better than I was. And that’s a start.

So, what does this mean for the future of skaBunny Makes? What am I gonna do now?

I’m not going to Disney World, but I am taking a week vacation in October to hangout with a friend and, fingers crossed, do some writing. I’m also working on a novella that I’m hoping to have done sometime around the end of the year. I’ll give you more information on that when I know more.

I’ve started a couple blog posts that I’m hoping to have up soon and I’d like to think that I’ll be back up and regularly posting here soon, but I’m gonna be ok if I can’t manage that.

Keep and eye on Instagram for more information, or you can follow me on Facebook.

Till Later Adventurers! Thank you from the bottom of my heart for hanging out and checking back. That means the world to me.



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Till Next Time Adventurers!

3 Things - The How is it ONLY Wednesday Edition

Hannah Golden

This has been a very long week. From last minute trips to the store in the middle of the night to 8 hour long meetings about the same thing we’ve talked about for the last 3 weeks - every morning. I’m to the point now where I’m so tired I feel like it should be 6 months from now and it’s January 16th, 2019 and I’m ready for a nap. I thought this Wednesday I’d do something a little different than forget to write. Today I’m going to count three things that are making me happy.

  1. I cleared out the junk mail in my email inboxes. This was a huge change for me because I’m really good at just hitting delete and hating the waste of time to do that. I have a long list of tools I’ll be telling you more about soon and unroll me is a good one.

  2. Tu Quoque - Means you also. This was a huge debate for the last 2 weeks in my house and having solved it tonight is a lovely finish to a ridiculous conversation.

  3. I bought two notebooks this weekend. I found one, a project notebook, at Walmart and have turned it into the book of lists. It has become an active part of me sorting out what needs to get done, what’s realistic and what I can totally skip. In the three days that I’ve used it I’ve found myself more productive and more understanding of my time and my priorities. The other notebook is for my own exploration of things I’ve stopped paying attention to and need to work on. I’ve already started setting up what I want to work on next and I’m very excited to start some self exploration as self care.

I’ll be honest Adventurers I expected this to be an easy task. It’s 3 things that make me happy. This should be easy to figure out and share, but it wasn’t. 20 minutes of guessing and I was still no closer to knowing for sure what’s brought me joy over the last few days. The list above is a decent representation of what I know in my heart to be true and good for me, but I do have questions for you, What is making you happy? Is it an easy list or did you have to think about it? Finally, If you struggled with your list, what would be a good start to making you happy? How can you make steps to change that?

I’m off to bed. Good Night Adventurers!

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2019 - A Beginning - Redux

Awesomeness, Future Planning, Hannah Golden, skaBunnyMakes!, Memory LaneHannah Golden

Humans make a big deal about all kinds of silly things related to the passing of time. As a new calendar year approaches we get reflective and decide to start our lives over. On Sunday we talked about my 2018. It was full of adventure, both happy and sad, and as the world turned another year older and that number changed I found it was time to reflect and really check in with myself on what I wanted to focus on for 2019.

2018 a Year in Review

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Every year on social media I devour lists of list of lists all the good, bad, sweet and terrible things that happened through the year. The more pictures, tweets and ideas the better. I don’t have a whole lot to talk about to review this year so this is gonna be a two part blog. Today we’re gonna talk about things that happened and Tuesday I’m going to post a special blog of the things that I’m hoping to do in 2019.

This is my life with FAI

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This is a long one, but I wanted to explain a bit of what was going on and what was changing in my life. It’s always been my goal to be honest about all of the things, and chronic joint pain is one of those things for me. I’ll be sure to post an update on changes and new life choices at some point, but it wont be this long hopefully and I’m fingers crossed that we’ll be talking about the positives rather than the negatives.

Moving On : A Love Story

Awesomeness, Extraordinary, Hannah Golden, It's All New Again, It's Not Always Easy, skaBunnyMakes!Hannah Golden

When my ex and I broke up I thought my life as I knew it was over. I was heart broken. Sure it was my idea and it was for the best, but the first 6 months was hell. Even as we pieced together the foundation of a friendship in the wake of our relationship I had no idea what to do. Dating was impossible. I had no idea who I was as a person and I was so angry at the world that I needed to find a way to start over and had no idea what to do.

3 things: Starting a New Year Edition

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I didn't realize it was going to be so hard to find 3 things that make me happy at the moment. I've been sick, I've been tired. Really over the holiday season and all of everything that's been going on, like everyone else I'm exhausted. It was a whirlwind of excitement and parts of it were pure joy. But the holidays bring out the worst in people too and I was reminded of a lot of things that I prefer to ignore most of the time. Here is the list of 3 things that are making me happy right now.

Quotable Monday : Dreaming Edition

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I'm trying to lose weight. I've been trying most of my life in the same manor that I do everything. I'm a little bit of an expert mixed with a lot of lazy. Weight loss is hard and I hate trying with no results. After I finished the last round of house sitting and really started to look at my finances, I was behind. I eat out too much, I spend to much on useless junk. My finances are a mess. I don't make enough money to be as careless as I am. So I needed to find a place to buckle down and do the right thing. That became my meals. 

It's easy to plan something basic, in my limited and growing skill set, that I could eat and would be healthy. I mean how hard is it to bake chicken. This time instead of thinking of it as weight loss... well it's not. This is really all about the dollar bills. If I want to go on vacation, see my sister, or pay off my car I really have to stop seeing food as a whatever I'm gonna eat it anyway kind of thing. 

The thing I really started to think about as last week ended was that my weight loss could be my pocket book's gain. By having a few things that I can do that are inexpensive, by always making sure that I'm eating healthy, I'm not going to splurge on snacks or lunch as often. It's not that I wont want to, but even now I'm noticing that I don't think to go out. The food is cooked, all I have to do is eat it. 

I am working on keeping healthy habits because Golda is right. My dreams aren't closed and locked. I can walk through those doors as soon as I want. I just need to do it. And if I happen to lose weight as I get better control over my money, I'm doing the right thing. 

Hope you have a good week. - XoxO - HhG

Tomorrow is my buddy Mark's birthday. He was born on June 6th and always felt that the numbers 420 and 666 were with him. He was so dedicated to the theme that he had 666 tattooed on his head. Almost 9 years Mark ended his life and I miss him a lot. If you or someone you know is struggling with depression, anxiety, suicide thoughts please get help. I am an open door. Feel free to contact me at anytime to just talk. If you are an open door or a safe place, please share. I'm here for you.  

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Thank you for everything you do everyday. XoxO - HhG